Just in time!

It's been 10 years since I started struggling to build the path to my dreams. Today, right before the last sunset in 2010, all targets accomplished. It was just in time!
And now, come surprises of the next decade. I already have the blue print, I'm gonna make it real. Once I have achieved once, I'm gonna achieve twice!

Let's roll 2011!

- d i s a p p e a r -

Having time for our self is necessary, especially in an intimate and long relationship...

You have all the time in the world and no need to hurry...

When it's the time, you won't notice...

Coz everything is always nice in the right time... But it's only about time.

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Hey, the motherearth is calling... I have to disappear...
BzzzttttpppPPPttt...ssscccsss...
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I guess see you when we're in the same frequency...- fading -
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- s i l e n t -
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- g o n e -

It was pouring, but it's fine. It was "the once" in the life time. All the things that have happened are directions toward destiny...

It always looks greener on the otherside.

All the workshops in the past... they won't appear anymore... there will be just me and you.

Home, this is the one we'll build...

You don't have to convince me anymore, because you are the one already.
My crazy eyes and minds... it may happen sometime. That you must understand.

However, I want the best smile I can get every morning... smell of coffee and toast for breakfast. I want it until the end of time.

Marriage Rules

It feels like it's been years I don't open this blog account. Too busy running the life even though it doesn't go anywhere further than my age. This is the time for marriage... it can be with anyone and I found her, the right match in the right time.

Reading Mitch Albom's "Tuesdays with Morrie", I learn that there are few rules to be true about marriage:

- if we don't respect the other party;
- if we don't know how to compromise;
- if we can't talk openly about what goes on between us; and
- if we don't have a common set of values of life,

then we're gonna have a lot of trouble.

Fair enough and making me believe, if we achieve than we go stable, through all the years no matter how rough.

This is not a drill

Until the time being I still can't believe I'm starting a life time commitment very soon. Everything went so fast, I even hardly had the time to look at the mirror to see myself in it. It's a mixed feeling of: excited – to start a new life together under one roof; sad – to leave my golden time of being a freeman; afraid – to realize that I will be stuck with a woman all of my life; doubtful – to really believe that she is the one; and lastly, proud – to find out that I have a brave heart and dignity to start new thing in my life.

Only until last week I found out that I had been having those mixed up feelings, they turned me into a very cranky and moody old man. During that period, my brain had been initializing old data on all of my romance stories since I was 14 going forward. Suddenly, an error happened when it was processing the binary codes - I had a Freudian slip in front of her on a name from the recent past. I didn’t know what to do and it was obviously both an accident and an incident.

She went mad for quite some time, yet luckily she’s not that cruel and we survived. It was until that time I realized that I really want her. I realized that I just want to see one of the best all time laughs in the history of all time laughs, her laugh, as she laughs with her entire body. I am amazed of her character, her loyalty and honesty, and she doesn't even take it out on people when she's having a bad day. I miss her smell, and the way she tastes just makes me feel like home.

I feel so sure now yet I am aware that all of my romantic stories are scrambled version of the first one going all over again every time until the last time. And now, I know that I don’t want to lose anymore in my life. I'm tired of all fantasies in my brain, because they don't really exist and they are never really any surprises, and they never really... This time I trust my feeling to start something real, AND THIS IS NOT A DRILL.

I wish you bluebirds in the spring to give your heart a song to sing / I wish you health and more than wealth / I wish you love / And in July some lemonade to cool you in some leafy glade / I wish you health / And more than wealth / I wish you love / My breaking heart and I agree that you and I could never be / So with my best / My very best / I set you free / I wish you shelter from the storm / A cozy fire to keep you warm / And most of all when snowflakes fall I wish you love / And most of all when snowflakes fall I wish you love.

Lisa Ono - my companion in Java Jazz 2007